Come as you are Rated (pg-13)

Hey it's me Angel ;-) Yep, its been a good long time! I am feeling a need to write about my day and then the next!







My day really the past few months have been rough but wonderful because I have so grown in the Lord. The messages being brought to my church family is one that is life changing and I am so very free from all kinds of things. I will get to them all in other blogs this is not the only one of this kind. I have literally went from dis pare to dancing on the roof top in one season and its all about the GRACE I have been freely given. I know your saying I want that (and if your not honey you crazy) so I am giving a link to my church's web site so you can go open up wide and get a mouth full to chew on. I have had to chew on this and spot some out just to pick it right back up cause it is to good to waste!



My heart is crying out for the lost at this season, I think how lost and deceived this world is and how easy it is for them to just TURN to the Maker and Finisher. Then you say but Angel you just don't realize how hard it is to be honest or how hard it is to be alone or without. LOL oh my friend I do. I would like to tell my story of coming to Harvest to let you know I feel you all, I have either been there and done it or was right there next to someone very close to me that has.



I will leave names and very specifics out for obvious reasons, warning to all mothers and fathers I'm giving it to ya raw so anyone who don't want there kids seeing you may want to STOP NOW!











About 9 years ago I found myself 21 with a 3 year old and a baby (not even 1). I was living with my boyfriend but I called him my fiancee because I was grown and wanted to play house ;-! I was smoking things I shouldn't and not just cigarettes, I was drinking to get drunk and forget life. This was daily actively for myself, I would wake up and go to work get home and start it all over again with my dream of a man. Side note young ladies heck ladies of ALL kind unmarried if you got a man that is taking part in ALL the wrong things with you OMG DO NOT MARRY HIM! And if you have a man that has spent time in jail/prison DO NOT think one imprisonment has changed him PLEASE do not marry him. Until you have had adequate counseling and you are released and even then if you have a gut feeling DO NOT MARRY HIM! Ok, back to the story. So I am now getting high drinking and parting wit my STUPID music yep I said it STUPID! I thought I was doing good when we (kids, me and boyfriend) were able to move out on are own we were living the life. But I felt like carp so what was it I'm always mad there for I go to take care of my feelings with drugs or alcohol or sex hey anything to take my mind off of my crappy life right! It was ok for me to have sex with the man I LIVED with right I had been with him for over a year (didn't matter if that year was spent with him in jail did it) I knew him so very intimately from letters right! I knew all there was to know about MY MAN! Just ignore the frequent trips to the FREAKING gynecologist for meds. Another side note LADIES if you have issues that continue longer then 3 weeks with antibiotic treatment KNOW you are more then likely being reinfected by someone VERY close to you and DO NOT MARRY HIM! SO, here we have a young mother of two that is working raising kids and totally blind to the fact of her KNIGHT AND SHINING ARMOUR is really a broken down gangsta aka OG and she is either working or altered in some way as soon as kids are in bed and y'all this went on for some time. My exciting nights out were chillin with my sister and her "knight and shining" oh we were the s---! Not to mention my every moment of being offended or wanting to take someone out for looking at me crossed eyed. Yes, it was bad. Until one day I woke up and heard a old familiar voice (way back when I was a kid) saying what are you doing you must stop that I LOVE YOU. It wasn't just a voice but also a force a strength that came with it allowing me to freely stand up and say NO MORE! Please lets not forget the above state of mind I was in I really thought what I was doing was not that bad I wasn't hurting or killing anyone so I was ok! I went to work with this voice (later to find out the HOLY SPIRIT) . I went to work that day with this very present voice telling me so easily what I should be doing. I came home to the kids and fiancee ready to continue the normal routine of crap. I remember it just like it was yesterday I still even can play this very day in my head the day I heard the Lord! My fiancee went to the kitchen that night asking me what I wanted to drink because he was getting his. My norm was a very strong mixed drink. I told him I don't want anything and that we are living in sin, we are unmarried doing things we shouldn't be doing! These words came out of my mouth before I even realized it was open, and you can imagine the look I was given. I knew I needed to find someone to talk to about this and that very night my mother ( are relationship was awful I pushed her away)called me with the great news! Tim Atchley my favorite Sunday school teacher from when I was 10 years old had started his own church and get this it was 3 miles from me. I attended that very Sunday and the rest is AMAZING history I have been there 9 years and grown in the Lord so much.



So that old saying people like to believe about you must get yourself together before you come to the Lord IS WRONG! Actually you must come just as dirty and messed up as you can be ,aka come to the END OF YOURSELF! I was at the end of myself the next step could of very well been death or even worse.


My Burden is Easy and My Yoke is Light!

More to come!!!!!!!!!!!!